Second thoughts

Am I really ready to leave New York? No. But will I ever be ready? Am I just getting last minute cold feet? Should I stay for another fall? Another winter? Another spring? Or return to California, the land of no seasons?

Can someone please answer all these questions for me, because I just can’t make this decision.

Of course, I’ve already bought my plane ticket, told my boss I’m leaving and told a new girl she could move into my room, so I guess my decision is pretty much made. But still, I’m having doubts. Could I call it all off? Do I want to?